I need advice about my 17 yr old stepdaughter and her mental illness?

Sorry this is long. She will be 18 in January. She lives with her mom over 90 miles away from me and her dad. She has severe anxiety and hypochondria. To the point that our insurance has dropped her for so many irrelevant dr. visits and tests. She has severe panic attacks and aggression towards her mom and dad. She resents both of them for not listing to her when she thinks she is sick. If she sees a freckle, its cancer, if she has a headache, its a tumor, and so on and so forth. Her mom refuses to deal with her and always calls me to drive down 90 miles to take her to the dr. Now its all out of pocket because we have no insurance on her anymore. It got to where the premium just for her was 580 a month before it was cancelled. Her father wont really do anything. He has his head in the sand pretending like nothing is wrong, and her mom just calls and btches at me for an hour about how she is a mental case and to come get her and take her to the dr. She has been on zoloft, but she said it made her feel like dying, so she is off of that now. Its impossible to see a therapist without insurance and the waiting list is over 2 yrs. for free help. Her brother (my stepson) has mainic depression and bipolar schitzophrenia, and so does their mother. He has tried to commit suicide 3 times, and each time I am the one who deals with it. He finally is stable. He is only 5 yrs. younger than me and she is only 9 yrs. younger, so half the time, the dr.s are asking me where their parents are. What can I do to help her before she goes to the mental hospital like her brother. I just want her to be able to cope with life and not think she is going to die or have a panick attack every single day. We bought her a car and pay her bills and phone, so she doesn’t have to work, but I think the freedom may allow too much time for thinking. What can I do? Where can I take her. Mind you, we have no insurance on her anymore, and we are by no means rich. Any suggestions? Please don’t say “tell her mom or dad to do something” because neither of them are any help in the situation. If anything they make it worse.
Okay maybe I should add this…..
She is DESPERATE for help. She knows she is mentally ill, and thinks she is physically ill, which is making her sick. She is willing to accept help, in fact she would be in a dr.s office everyday if we could afford it.

How much does genetic testing cost in Canada?

I’m from canada and my husband and I are interested in genetic testing to help us decide whether or not to have kids (we both have mental illness in the family, as well as heart problems and autism run in his family). Does anyone have any idea how much it costs?
Feel free to answer even if you’re not from canada, but please let me know what country you live in.

My son tested positive on a urine test for marijuana. He said he smoked once and the urine level was 105ng/ml.?

He said he smoked a week ago and game me the rest of the marijuana. He said it was his first time and he was just curious. I have never caught him drinking. He is 6’0 and 150 lbs. He is a straight “A” student, very active in sports, has clean cut friends and a very innocent nice girlfriend. He is 17 y.o. But I am a nurse and can’t have any tolerance for this. My grandfather was an alcoholic and my husband’s father was an alcoholic. My husband has 11 uncles that are alcoholics and addicted to gambling. Our gene pool together is “full” of addiction. I worry because of genetics, and the fact it is illegal, that this could become a habit much easier for him than others. I tried alcohol 2 times when I was a young teen and had a friend almost die of alcohol poisoning while with me. It scared me terribly. Our children have never seen us drink because of our family history and we don’t privately. We also have a lot of mental illness in our families and that gives a predisposition to get easily addicted. I am a gentle person. I do not judge others because I know that no one is sin free but I am strict in this area due to the above. I have shared with our son that we to tired alcohol when we were underage and it was illegal. I do not want to be naive but also do not want him to feel shamed? Because shame leads to addiction. Accountability leads to growth. I told him he would have to be drug tested monthly until he has regained my trust. I love him so very much. He is mad and I am ok with that. But he apologized and said he would not do it again. But what does this level mean and how do I go about this? I love him and want him to grow stronger from this and we as parents want to grow to.

Why would you want to believe that life is one big test?

Religious people take comfort in the fact that a higher power is constantly judging them and knows absolutely everything – no wonder there are so many people with mental illnesses like schizophrenia!!

If god created man then he created our emotions too ie fear, envy etc yet some of these emotions that we have absolutely no control over are considered “sins” and if we commit these sins then we go to hell to suffer for all eternity?? Why did he give us the ability to feel these emotions in the first place – are we just one big game to him?
In that case why do you worship such a cruel being? Wouldn’t you rather take the atheist approach and realise we are not being scrutinised every second of our lives and we are free?
and before you start banging on about morales etc I don’t need an ancient dictating book to tell me right from wrong I can work it out for myself. The bible is so full of hatred and contradictory crap once you weed out all the nasty bits what does that leave you with “thou shall not kill” ? Is that it – is that what you waste your lives on? I could of told you that why not start worshiping me??!!
Also according to religion you can “sin” all you want as long as you ask for forgiveness and repent? Where’s the moral guidance in that?
I thought the devil was the enemy of god – so why is god all too willing to send people to hell for the mere “sin” of not believing in him? I thought “he loves us”?
Traveler: Atheists get more out of life because they realise that there is only one life so make the most of it – actually why am I wasting my time on here talking you you retards – I should be out there sinning and having a great time doing it.
Cannonball: Exactly you just proved my point we are to apologise for being human and humans are gods creation so we are apologising for his creation? How cruel is that – It’s like giving a child a toy and giving it vague clues that it shouldn’t be playing with the toy so when it does play with the toy it gets punished for all eternity

Christians how strong would you faith be if you had to go threw this kind of life for 7 yrs?

some times when I close my eye’s i see these eye’s and they blink. All sorts of evil faces…..where the heck can a mind come up with this? I mean such demonic faces, how does the mind just get sick and create these image’s? I mean these eye’s blink… My sickness even has a sense of humor. When I was getting dental work done showing my teeth in x-rays, a low thought said I wish I could show them my teeth. I almost started to laugh and I could not help it. With a image scaring the doctors with these demonic teeth.There has been other signs of humor in this illness, sarcastic humor. What can create humor, doesn’t humor need intelligence?Not to mention I have a vile manner of telling people to **** my ****….. over and over in my head. Talk with Jesus I sometimes say it….bugs me, just spits out.

I always say I am possessed, because of what happens at the church, getting wiped around and stuff. My mental illness is quite irritated to prayers and worship. The shrink says he has never heard of a sickness communicate with prayer as I talk about. If a pastor ever says those that need spiritual healing over the congregation in a prayer, I put up quite a show with my body and my head. They once prayed this prayer and I was forced to sit down because my head went in a Mad scream back and forth NO way. I was not screaming but noises were coming from me….I guess if you were taken like that you would make a noise as well.

so have anyone ever heard of a mental illness like this? Not to mention I have 1000′s of voices. The only reason I keep my sanity I believe is because I seek after God and I know in my heart I will be free.
How would you be before the lord after 7 yrs like this? The pastors in every church just stare at you. They say you are not demon possessed. I think they are looking for someone like the movie the exorcist? I keep wondering if I should bring some pop corn to the pastor when he just stares at me. I was once on my knees weeping because of all the satanic thoughts being in my head, and I was saying sorry to God for being a very wicked person. I was waling in church at the alter. Baling my eye’s out. I stood up and I fell straight to the floor. I was shaking left right and center my whole body, like I was having a seizure, but I was fine in my head. The Christians came over to me and placed their hands over me and tried to cast out the demon. (their Idea). I went from a low pitch to a High pitch. I think I got the whole beat of the cord. I was screaming, or it was screaming. Then they pulled their hands away. I guess I was really loud. I was so confused about what happened I did not want to leave the church. I wanted this demon out of me. Then they called the cops on me….and do not want to try again, and say I am not demon possessed? Why would they say that? I have tried all kinds of church’s. The same happens, I am wiped around like a rag doll sometimes. But they say I am not demon possessed. The pastor told me to search the spirit and test it. I called on God and asked if I was possessed if he would show me the spirit and frighten me. That instant a life like picture came to me and I was frightened. I told the pastor this he just shrugged his shoulders and said you are not demon possessed. Talk about NO help from my family when I need them.

The only thing good out of all this 7 yr walk is I learned how to love the Lord. SO how would you be with your church and your faith if you had this for 7 yrs and you do not know how to be free?

hope you can read it all…
no help from my church family….not from people on Y/A. Some Christians have been good to me.

Following my brother’s battle w brain tumor, my mom was diagnosed w cancer. No cure. i’m 26 and now caregiver?

FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE FOR FAMILY CAREGIVERS???
at 26, i’ve become an unpaid family caregiver. Following the stress that comes w any considerable crisis, I was quick to assume the unofficial role of family caregiver, since my mom was diagnosed w advanced stage 4, metastatic breast cancer (following my brother’s recent battle w a brain tumor). No cure.
i am so tired and completely spent (compassion fatigue/caregiver burnout etc) i have over exerted my energy, my physical and emotional endurance, and have completely exhausted all FINANCIAL RESOURCES critical to offering any accomodating releif.
I feel so guilty. please forgive me for sounding selfish. I am so grateful each day, and give thanks for the many blessings we all so often take for granted. I have offered my sacrifices daily, since coming home from college over 2 yrs ago; i am completely drained, no dollar to my name. Literally, nothing left to give??? (except, of course my love).
i am 26 and my life is at a standstill; i feel stuck in a holding pattern and cant help but have this increasingly HEAVIER heart. I’ve been completely consumed by their compromised health, and continue to feel pulled by the ongoing pressures, while extending every ounce of support to serve in any way i can. Since no longer working full time, i’m financially spent and physically burned. I can’t seem to get a “leg up” and currently cannot even remotely afford to stay somewhat involved in my own life (and i would never ask/expect anyone in my family to pay me– they are sick). My mom is 55 (not elder to qualify for othr aid) Don’t know where to go??? If federal assistance is even available/for young family caregivers of cancer patients/or if otherwise hard to find??? (i know it’s unique situation. But can’t seem to find any solid advice. Anyone who can empathize/possibly relate??? i’d be so grateful for any welcome advice)
Thanks so much in advance, for taking time to read/possibly consider predicament. Much appreciate any helpful advice.

What are some easy stamina exercises that I can do to combat fatigue resulting from my traumatic brain injury?

Last summer I was in a couple of car accidents in which I suffered a closed head injury and a resulting traumatic brain injury; as a result of my TBI, I found myself unable to do a lot of the things that I could before. A couple of years before, I lost a lot of weight (80lbs) and had been on a regular exercise program, but since the accident, I had poor balance and coordination, and because of the time I had to take off – even with physical therapy – I lost a lot of muscle mass (more weight – 25lbs in about a month and a half), which meant that I could not do as strenuous work as I could before. 35lb freeweights became 20-25lb freeweights, half-hour runs became 10-minute runs.

I couldn’t participate in ballroom dance anymore (and have yet to go back much), and I stopped rock climbing.

My balance and coordination have improved since, and I have been able to return to some of the activities that I had done before – some dancing and some rock climbing, for example – but the biggest thing is that I no longer have the stamina to do much at all. I am pretty regularly fatigued from just about anything – mentally and physically (reading a book makes me tired, now) – so, most exercise kind of knocks me out. If I run on a treadmill for 15 minutes in the morning, that’s all the energy I’ll have for most of the day; whereas before the accidents, I used to do morning exercises to GIVE myself energy.

I just came off of a 2-mile jog, and doubt that I’ll have the energy to do much more aerobic exercise today (I may ride a stationary bike later, trying to push myself, even if just a little) and right now I feel like collapsing.

My doctor says that the fatigue I’m experiencing is normal, and that it may last for some time. However, I am discontented by how the lack of exercise makes me feel in general, and the amount of weight I have gained since I was out of the hospital (nearly 20 pounds since I’ve been out, and it’s definitely NOT muscle).

What are some easy exercises that may help to increase my endurance/stamina, and possibly combat this fatigue?
Anybody who has been in my place, and experienced a traumatic brain injury which has caused them fatigue like this: what are some other things that may help me out?
I don’t want to continue feeling like I’m lazy and gaining weight like this!

Manny Pacquiao vs Chris John? CJ will beat Manny?

Yes Pac Man beats JMM. but is does not show that he is a real champion because he always decline CJ challenge. I believe Chris John will win the battle. skill, brain, endurance, speed vs Power. If you know that someone strong enough than you so you will always runaway from him.

I need to know the best way to get faster, and lose a little weight.?

I play soccer for a Super II team, my coach insists that I do not build endurance, but that I build speed. He says, and I quote, “In the game of soccer you do not jog around for 90 minutes your brain needs to have the mentality of explosion.” I need to kow how to get this mentality.

1. Which of the following most accurately defines good health today?

A. The ability to recover from an illness
B. The ability to endure a 30-minute workout
C. The absence of disease
D. Complete physical, mental, and emotional well-being

2. Which of the following is important in maintaining a healthy lifestyle?
A. Getting less than six hours of sleep a night
B. Developing muscular bulk
C. Monitoring your diet
D. Exercising at least three hours each day

3. Which of the following is good for your health?
A. Smoking
B. Positive behavioral change
C. Substance abuse
D. Eating fatty foods

4. Which of these factors is most important in your fitness program?
A. Consistency
B. Joining a health club
C. Doing stretching exercises
D. Using mirrors in your exercise program

5. Which of the following statements is true?
A. Unexercised muscles turn into fat.
B. Unexercised muscles lose bulk but don’t atrophy.
C. Regular exercise makes muscles firm and strong.
D. Exercise slows down your metabolism.

6. Cardiovascular fitness exercises strengthen which two organs?
A. Heart and brain
B. Liver and lungs
C. Brain and liver
D. Heart and lungs

7. What five fitness goals should you set for any comprehensive fitness program?
A. Flexibility, endurance, substantial weight loss, proper nutrition, and muscle power
B. Disease prevention, fad diets, coordination, muscular bulk, and relaxation
C. Flexibility, endurance, muscle power, proper nutrition and weight control, and relaxation
D. Disease prevention, endurance, tight muscles, fast-food diet, and thin appearance

8. Which of the following is the major cause of most back problems?
A. Muscular weakness and lack of flexibility
B. Long drives in an automobile
C. A poor mattress
D. Unaligned posture

9. High blood pressure is the major risk factor for
A. cancer.
B. stroke.
C. osteoporosis.
D. muscular atrophy.

10. Endorphins help rid the body of
A. cholesterol.
B. fat.
C. sodium.
D. acid.

11. Good health was once viewed as a combination of
A. having a good doctor and eating three hearty meals a day.
B. possessing good personal habits and good luck.
C. living in the right place and possessing good personal habits.
D. good luck and the right parentage.

12. To maintain a healthy weight, it’s important to avoid being
A. five pounds or more overweight.
B. 10 percent or more over the suggested weight for your height.
C. either overweight or underweight.
D. underweight by five pounds or more.

13. Who is primarily responsible for your health?
A. You
B. Your doctor
C. Your family
D. The medical care system

14. Which of the following statements is true regarding the benefits of managing your health?
A. Your self-esteem will decrease.
B. You’ll have more energy and improved cardiovascular health.
C. Your metabolism will decrease, allowing for higher caloric intake.
D. Your stress levels will increase.

15. There’s no health advantage to changing your weight if
A. it’s within the range on the weight tables.
B. you feel energetic.
C. your waist-to-hip ratio places you at risk.
D. you’ve never been successful at dieting.

16. Personal fitness trainers usually work with
A. employees in a corporation.
B. parks and recreation departments.
C. individuals seeking a more personalized workout.
D. hospital nutritionists.

17. According to this study unit, which of the following is acceptable nutritional advice?
A. Lose weight as fast as you can.
B. Skip one meal a day, other than breakfast.
C. Eat every meal quickly to speed up your metabolism.
D. Eat three meals a day at regular times.

18. What is the number of beats per minute for an average resting heart?
A. 64
B. 72
C. 80
D. 96

19. Which of the following is considered a fitness goal?
A. Watching a physical exercise program on television
B. Obtaining optimal weight where you feel your best and you have healthy eating habits
C. Relaxing for 10 minutes once a week
D. Developing muscles only by lifting weights

20. Which of the following statements is true?
A. Lungs are strengthened through cardiovascular exercise.
B. Inactive people find it easier to change lifestyle habits than active people.
C. Regular exercise softens bones.
D. Psychiatrists avoid recommending exercise as a way of dealing with depression.

1099????????????/?

My husband and I are finally making some good money, but each check we get taxed like crazy, my husband talked to his boss and he said he would pay him with like a personal check, but that my husband would have to file a 1099. I spoke to a friend of mine who does taxes, and she said there are a lot of fees we are going to have to pay during tax season if we file 1099….does anyone know the pros or cons to filing 1099 or know a website that i can look it up??

I received a 1099 after filing my taxes. Can I pay taxes on the 1099 seperately from my return?

The 1099 came from consulting work I done on the side. It was about $5,000, which was substancially more than I remembered, but it’s correct. I would rather just send a check for the percentage tax owed on it, rather than have to deal with the IRS.

How do I 1099 my clients,employees and companies for money received from my company?

Please provide steps and help on how do I 1099 my clients,employess and companies for money received from my company. It is my first time to file the taxes this way. Before I was the only party received 1099.
Thank you.

What to do when 1099 is for more than I received?

I just received a 1099 for consultant work I did in 2006. The 1099 is for an amount far more than I was actually paid. I am contacting the company, but it is a huge bureaucracy and I’m worried they won’t correct it. What can I do on my return to not go into poverty to pay taxes on an enormous amount of money that I was never paid.
Thanks for the help. Turns out they did it to everyone and they sent a correct 1099. I just hope it doesn’t cause problems with the IRS.

What is a website i can file 1099 forms?

When i started my job i was an independent contractor where they were not taking taxes out but then i became and employee. How do i file the 1099 and the W-2 and what is the best site to do this on? Will these be filed together? In the past i always filed my taxex online with turbotax, taxact or something like that but i didnt know if i could do that again with the 1099 now included. The 1099 stuff is new to me and i really need some help on how to do this?

PLEASE help me summarize this article!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

In light of a recent USA Today/Gallup poll that found that many Americans harbor anti-Muslim feelings, I had planned to make another plea that we stop blaming an entire community of people for the reprehensible acts of a few bad actors. And on the heels of a new study — presented last week at a meeting of the American Psychological Association — which found that Muslim Americans and Arab-Americans are experiencing poorer mental health than other Americans, I intended to say that we should celebrate differences and have zero tolerance for those who harass, condemn and even assault other human beings because of their religion or physical appearance.

Then came the chilling news that British authorities had foiled a terror plot by Islamic radicals to bring down up up to 10 passenger planes set to leave the United Kingdom for the United States, a plot that — had it been successful — would have achieved what one British law enforcement official described as “mass murder on an Unimaginable scale.”

I still believe that Americans should strive to be fair and tolerant and respectful of diversity, and that we shouldn’t issue blanket indictments. It’s just that now, I bet, most Americans aren’t in the mood to hear that message.

They don’t want to hear about how unfair it is that Muslim Americans — even those who have no ties to terrorism — are routinely singled out for additional scrutiny and subjected to resentment and prejudice at the hands of their countrymen. They probably fon’t want to hear about how we mustn’t sacrifice our civil liberties — or anyone else’s — or paint all Muslim Americans with the same brosd brush. And they certainly don’t want to hear that the reason we have to avoid doing all this isn’t just to protect the rights of ethnic groups and the persomal safety of individuals, but also the spirit of a great country.

yet it is at moments like this — when passions are running hot — that such messages really need to sink in. After all, when are we supposed to discuss the subject — when the threat level decreases and things cool down? what good would it do then? that’s like holding your tongue when Japanese-Americans were placed in internment camps during World War II and speaking up inly when the war was over and the camps were closed, It’s like sitting out the civil rights movement, nad speaking up only once the major battles were won.

Now the embattled group is Muslim Americans, In the USA Today/Gallup poll, 39 percent of Americans said they felt at least some prejudice against Muslims, The same percentage favored requiring Muslims, including those who were U.S. citizens, to carry a special ID to help prevent future terrorist attacks. And 22 percent of respindents said they wouldn’t wnat Muslims as neighbors.

Eavesdropping on talk radio and conservative blogssince the terror plot was reveled, one would think we’ve gone back in time to the days following sept. 11,2001, when hate crimes were on the rise and some people called for racial profiling of Arab-Americans. That’s happening again, as some AMericans are once more proposing that we behave in vety un-American ways.

During an interview on “Fox News Sunday,” host Chris Wallace asked Homeland Security chief Michael Chertoff if we shouldn’t engage in ” secutity profiling” of Muslims who want to get on airplanes instead of “wasting time” screening 85-year-oldgrandmothers — even if such profiling isn’t “politically correct.” (From the way the question was phrased, Wallace presumbly was talking about 85-year-old grandmothers who aren’t Muslim.)

Chertoff could have answered the question in a variety of ways. He could have talked avout how it’s wring to single out members of a particular ethnic group when — as Wallace acknowledged — “all Muslims aren’t terrorists.” Or he could have said that we’re at was and that evetyone has to make sacrifices — not just Muslims of all ages but also 85-year-old grandmothers. Instead, Chertoff fell back on pragmatism. He responded that while we have to use common sense, terrorists often fell back on pragmatism. He respimded that while we have to use common sense, terrorists often use people “who do not look like our ordinaty conception of terrorists pricisely order to get around our secutity. “So if we get too locked into a profile, and exclude all other possibilities, we’ll end up “dropping our guard.”

That’s not a bad answer either. But shame on those who would even ask the question.

Do the Fundies use Christianity to sell Jesus as a product to unsuspecting consumers?

You can read the Bible all by yourself but first you have to buy it from someone. Fundies sell Bibles, Bibles that are not the version you read in Cathecism with Sister Mary Margaret. These folks promise to sell you a version of the Bible that shows the true meaning of Christianity. Of course you cannot find the copy of this version of the True Christian Bible in any store. No, sir. No, m’am. But we can sell it to you for the discounted special offer here today of just three hundred and sixty five dollars. That’s right. For just about one dollar a day, ladies in gentlemen, we can sell you this truly authentic version of the true Christian Bible for less than a dollar day.
Mick Jagger once sang “I Can’t Get No Satisfaction” and he and the Rolling Stones charge hundreds of dollars for tickets to see their shows. Today, on this day only, and operators are standing by, the Reverend Willie Bob Jackson is planning on visiting your county sometime in the near future for a special meeting of fellow Christians just like yourself. And unlike Mick Jagger, Jesus will give you all the satisfaction you desire.
Now, brothers and sisters, we are taking up a silent collection this evening. I don’t want to hear any loose coins rattling in the collection basket, if you know what I’m saying. Credit card donations are accepted. Just give us your checking account number and indicate how much you would like the Reverend to deduct each week or better yet let the Reverend decide. The difference between the highway to Hell and the gateway into Heaven is a matter of dollars and sense. Don’t let Satan win. Jesus needs you, so don’t let him down.
During our prayer meetings today we will be helping the blind to see, the deaf to hear, and the gays and lesbians to see the errors of their ways and turn to the Lord for guidance. Don’t believe the atheists in the mental health profession about gays and lesbians being born that way. That’s a bunch of bunk. That is Satan tempting you into peversions from masturbation to homosexuality and the woman’s love that dares not speak it’s name.
Bring your abspestos suit because there is going to be Fire and Brimstone in your county tonight. We are gonna burn the floor and raise the roof because Jesus is coming to your town tonight! We will be on local cable channel 13 and operators are standing by to collect your donation. Remember, if your donation doesn’t hurt, it’s not worth giving, so dig deep for Jesus people! We’ll take a hundred dollar bills! We’ll take a thousand dollar bills! We’ll take the house for Jesus Christ!
Remember, the Lord frowns upon gambling. Gambling is the Devil’s pulpit. I know some of my brothers and sisters like to play the slot machines and Bingo and the like. There is a way that you can take those unclean earnings and donate them tax free to a good cause, your personal salvation. Gambling is a sin but you can be forgiven that sin right here tonight by giving those sinful earnings to the Church of Willie Bob. The Reverend does good work. He gets up every day at 5am to care for the dying homosexuals and lesbians who have accpeted their sins and are dying with Christ. He reads the Bible to the children. He baptizes the children and he dunks the adults. He has gone into the Youth Centers and turned punks into preachers of the Good News of the Lord Jesus Christ the Son of God and Our Savior.
Fundies are fundamentalists. I suppose a fundie has fun conning people out of their money. That can be fun, right? Fundies usually do not give anything away without expecting something in return. If you were given a Bible, you are expected to make a donation to the cause. Just saying. That’s not free.
Jesus loves Anne Coulter. He died over 2,000 years ago. He doesn’t love anyone now. The man is dead. D-E-A-D! Get it?

What’s the best way to get over douchebag parents and stop being depressed about them?

When I turned 10 years old, the teachers forced my parents to take me to a mental health doctor in Detroit whom diagnosed me with ADHD-C. After 1 year of therapy & medication, I was not showing signs of improvement so my parents removed me from both therapy & medication. Meanwhile, from the age of 10 all the way until now (I’m 30) I have been relentlessly bullied and emotionally unstable as a result of being emotionally abused for so long. I wasn’t just abused by my peers though; when I came home to talk to my parents about getting bullied they would say stuff like “well maybe you deserved it” or “if you didn’t run your mouth then you wouldn’t of got beat up” or something else that would imply I deserved to be treated this way. So long story short, my parents were never there for me. I was neglected, isolated, and emotionally abused.

When I turned 13, I learned how to be a class clown. I didn’t like the negative attention I was getting by getting detentions, suspensions, or bullied more; but any attention was better than no attention. But my parents had a different idea about this. My mother was raised Catholic and when her parents disciplined her, she was beat; as a result, she is a VERY angry person on the inside and has lots of aggression problems. When I came home with bad news about school, my Dad was never home (he had to work 80 hours or more a week to keep the house) so my Mom would be the one to discipline me. Hair pulling, pushing, top of lungs screaming, swearing at me, slamming my head against things, pinning me to keep me from running, and just about any domination tactic she could think of was her method of punishment. The cops were called on me several times for not “obeying my parents” and for “hitting her” when she would be the one to hit me first. At 15, my Mom was trying to work out her exit strategy and demanded I found a job the MINUTE I turned of age because I was “driving her insane” and she wanted her life back (why did you have kids then?). I got the job and paid for my own stuff; but I didn’t take high school serious after that… Mind you, I am just acting out on the unfairness that was my life. No one has a PERFECT life; but they at least have parents that love them.

When I turned 18, I ran away from home and lived with a girlfriends for about 6 months. It didn’t work out but I was addicted to the freedom away from my parents. I didn’t have to worry about getting abused and I didn’t have to worry about my mother’s bipolar-like aggression.

When I came back home, I was jobless; but my Mom REFUSED to pay for someone 19 years or older so she forced me to get a job and pay room and board. Instead, I got the job, but I lived in my car and paid for gas ($1.09/gallon back then). Lucky for me, a girl I fell in love with agreed to get an apartment with me and today we are married with 2 children, 4 animals, and a house…

The problem I’m having is, I am having a really hard time letting go of my parents & brother. I don’t know why I expect them to care after 30 years of not caring, but a part of me gets an urge to call my parents and tell them how I’m doing whenever I feel good or feel bad. But the result is always the same, my Mom pushes her agenda of Catholic living on me, and my Dad tells me to obey my mother and to “not make her angry” because he still lives with her and has to deal with it…

When I talk to my parents, they have NO genuine concern of how I’m doing. Mind you, I’m currently unemployed (due to my health issues), I have ADHD still, I have early stages of Rheumatoid Arthritis, I have gone in and out of depression several times since I lost my job, I lost my health insurance but I think I am Gluten and Lactose intolerant (suspicious of Celiac Disease), I am an emotional train wreck and can’t keep friends due to my lack of ability to trust anyone, I am very codependent of my wife and I am afraid of her abandoning me if I don’t do everything she says, I am an inconsistent father and I constantly change my point of view, and my self esteem and self worth is so low that I feel apathetic most days…

So I need your help. Besides going back to therapy, how do I stop having the urge to contact my parents and just accept that they are part of my past now and I need to reject them like they have rejected me for 20 years? I can’t keep living my life believing the lie that my parents love me, when in fact, their actions and behavior says otherwise…

Help…

Please help me! I really don’t know what is wrong?

When I was younger, a year ago, I was amazing with words, reading them, talking, expressing my feelings, explaining something, etc.
But now I am VERY bad at it. I can’t read correctly, I can’t express my emotions right, I often say the wrong word, and like just go from one thing to something else completely unrelated.
I am 13 girl, and these past few years have been very hard and stressful with my mental health and physical health(I have a disorder called PANDAS).
Anyway, it’s been a downward climb these past couple months. I used to be able to read very good, and actually enjoy it, but now I can barely make it through two paragraphs. I think some of this might be normal with PANDAS, but yet, I just feel that something else is wrong(I’m probably wrong). I am just really worried about this.

Anyway, sometimes I think I react bad, like with the wrong reation, like sometimes in a sad part in a movie I just laugh, it’s disturbing, I know, but that’s what I do. And sometimes happy-jolly little kids TV shows(yes, I like them) make me feel scared out of my wits, for no good reason. Not at the characters, or songs, but they just make me feel scared, like someone is out to get me, I guess.

When I say something, I normally get really detailed into it, like into little details that nobody cares about, and it’s really long, and really just yea. And like when I’m in the middle of a sentence, like saying ‘mom, did you know that……… Hey chocolate is yummy’ but that wasn’t what I was gonna say. And my talking gets distracted, like I’m saying ‘brownie’s are natures dessert, they-did you see the news yesterday? The eric holden dude was talking about the terrorist thing’. And like I go talking from one thing to another, like ‘Grace, they are making a new pooh bear movie! Batman is awesome. So are my little ponies’. I also go back to myself a lot, like in a conversation. And starting a sentence with ‘me’ or ‘ i ‘ or whatever. My memory is really bad, but I believe that is normal with PANDAS because with PANDAS there are little things eating your brain. lol I’ll prbably never be the same again.
I have a hard time feeling things most of the time(I mean emotionally). I am normally a really big hearted person, and I learned that my grandmother might have a a tiny stroke today, and I wasn’t really sad. And believe me, if I were normal, I would have cried a lot. This is really scaring me, a lot. Sorry this is so long! I didn’t notice that…….

But anyway, this stuff has shown up(I’ve never had problems with most before) and gotten precedingly worse in the past 3 or so months.

Also, I’m depressed, so maybe this is normal with depression??

The only way I was able to put all of this stuff down so I ould type it all up was getting it in a list, so just be warned, I probably didn’t put in a lot of stuff. But basically, is there anything wrong with it? Maybe it’s just me being my weirdwordy self. lol, like sometimes I use really older words and use them in ways that people don’t. It’s funny afterward.

Thankee Kindly. xoxo

P.S. Please don’t be a knave and write anything mean. I don’t mean to be on the offense here, but sometimes people an be mean. So if you weren’t going to be mean, then thank you. If you were going to be mean I would ask not for you to be, but it is a free country so you can do as you please.
@ M.D. : What type of neurologic problem?

Am I crazy, or is what i am experiencing….. actually occurring?

before i ask this question i would like to state that i have no mental health problems, do not use drugs or alcohol and tobacco regularly and have been described by my teachers as a bright, knowledgeable student.

I am 16 male and believe i can see the future, i know what your thinking, this guy is NUTS
however before you pass judgment allow me to give you all the facts.

i want you to remember what you did, lets say.. a week ago today. Where were you this time a week ago? who were you with, what were you doing, what could you smell, hear, taste i want you to think of all these things
now the emotion that you are feeling upon remembering all these details is called MEMORY
your remembering all the things that you experienced.

This is what i experience when i see the future, not a vision, BUT a memory, as it happens i sometimes get Deja Vu, sometimes a tingling in the front of my head, sometimes just a feeling of having been here before.

Look this thing scares me, im going to the Doctors today and asking for his opinion.
ill make this very clear, i have a sound mind, i know exactly what i am experiencing
eg. No delusions, No wacky visions, No hallucinations etc.

even my dreams are becoming memory’s to me, its not that ive experienced it before but i can remember myself in that situation. that EXACT situation

im simply asking for… some guidance i guess…
this thing scares me, it keeps happening more and more often, a year ago it would happen once a week, NOW it occurs half a dozen times a day

Even as i type this question i can remember sitting where i am, wearing what i am wearing, thinking the same thoughts, even the tv has the same news on it.

any thoughts?
Yes its like a memory of a future situation from my perspective.
but i dont know when this is going to happen until moments before it happens
sorry should have specified